Let's toss the coin, shall we?

Every so often in our lives, we would come to a situation where we are required to make a choice before we are able to move further. Most of the times the choices we have to make mostly revolves around mundane things such as what colour shirt should we wear with that favourite pair of jeans, or do we choose to drag our laurels out of bed to go to that class or slip back under the covers because the rain had created an oh-so-comfy atmosphere that just begs you to continue sleeping. Small, innocuous choices in life that doesn't really leave that big of an impact in your life (unless you had chosen the wrong colour combination. Stripes and swirls in severe contrasting colours DO NOT match, so spare us the pain, quit trying @@")


However, how about decisions which affect the BIG issues? BIG issues here referring to major ones hokay, not those remeh-temeh ones such as "Adakah ia wajar untuk saya makan walaupun sebenarnya tak lapar, tapi pasal orang belanja so nak makan jugak wthimerepek" kind of issues. I mean those issues that could affect not only yourself but also to those around you.

Actually, lemme correct that, let's just deal with decisions which could affect those around you. Kalau nak buat semua, harusla sampai tahun depan tak settle-settle lagi =.="

Time and again, I find myself in the awkward situation where I am torn deciding between two (or more) options. Pilih option A, I sakit hati but Bedah (bukan nama sebenar) gumbira, while pilih option B, stake interest I selamat tapi Bedah pulak saket hati. Nak jaga hati/hak sendiri, orang kata self-centred tapi kalau asyik fikir orang lain, habis kepala kena pijak. Heck, bukan sekadar kepala, segalanya dipijaknya! *seethes in aggravation*

Hmm..I do believe this is turning into one of those RAGE posts. Dayum.

Needless to say I am up to my neck with trying to balance out considering other peoples' feelings while making sure I don't bend over backwards while doing it. As whiny as this is going to sound, I'm tired of it. Tired of being there for you when you don't even care. Don't get me wrong, I'm not asking you to thank me everytime I do you a favour, but have some common decency to at least realize what other people do for you. Don't ever take people for granted because seriously, your actions might just be the thing which will push other people away.

Oh and another thing, try to realize that people who can laugh and chill with you on the good days are not necessarily your real friends. I mean think about it, yes they're cool and they're fun to be with and all BUT, try to remember when things get rough and circumstances around you seem bleak, which of those people are there for you? And being there for you, I don't mean just being able to text you or call you through the phone. Heck, we have the local BeFrienders telephone helpline for those kind of things =_= The existence of such services proves that everyone has the ability to listen, from the cute guy you were making sheep eyes with in the library to the annoying git you had to share a table with in the mamak shop. The point I'm trying to point out here is that EVERYONE can listen, but can we say for sure that everyone has the ability (and patience) to stay and help? Haruslah tak kan? At the rough times baru most of us realize that those people whom you can laugh and gossip the day away are conveniently absent when you need them the most. Distance is not a defense, if they really care they can travel 73463264923865kms. And don't diss people just because you guys don't see eye to eye on certain issues. You both have valid points, not everything needs to be agreed upon. Learn to agree to disagree =\

Oh and one other thing and this goes to everyone (including myself ><"). Don't ask for advice if you're just only gonna reject it. Yes, there are some advices given that its stupid to follow, for example:

Girl A : Babe..I'm so depressed..I caught my boyfie cheating on me..AGAIN..what should I do..eventhough its the 287435734858 time he's done it, but I still love him...

Girl B : Don't give up, I'm sure he'll change one day...just hang in there kay...

POOOTTTTTTT WRONG ADVICE!! Those kind of advices are like the perfect recipe for a lifetime of heartache. Give your friend a chance, tell her to just ditch the ass.

Before anybody comes out in righteous anger, take awhile and ponder about this. Yea, it might sound extremely presumptious of me to support "meddling" in other people's lives BUT take into account that certain situations calls for intervention. Would you sit back and watch a beloved friend continue making choices which hurts her? Tak kan? =\

Tapiiiii...an advisor must be prepared to take on the burden of making sure that whatever advice you give do not completely influence the mind of the advisee (is there even such a word?). I know this doesnt make sense but i'll try to simplify it.

Advisor : Has the duty to point out the issues and (maybe, depending on situation) lay out the possible remedies which could be taken by the person in question. An advisor has to be neutral and objective. They cannot be swayed by prejudice as bias as this could affect in unrealistic or illogical advice. Plus an advisor has to be prepared to face the consequences if things go bad due to some of the advice given.

Advisee (the poor soul that has the problem) :
Has the obligation to listen (cause dia yang tanya opinion, kena dengar ar) and digest what is being said BUT he/she then has the sole responsibility to go back and decide on their own. They cannot, and I repeat CANNOT take the advice given just like that without ruminating on the pros and cons. This is because if they choose to act upon those advice and things go awry, they cannot blame the advisor. In the end, it was their choice to act upon the advice.


Its this kind of burden that makes me reluctant to give advice at times. Yea I know I have the "mak tiri" nickname with my housemates cause I like to nag and all, but whenever people come to me regarding serious issues, I have a serious problem whether to say anything at all. Dahla tengah sure tak sure samada its appropiate to intervene or not, then when you do say something but you see the advice masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri, I think I have valid cause to be annoyed. Then you realize that when these people come to you with their problems, they're not looking for solutions, they're just looking for a sympathetic ear. Sorry chicas, if you're looking for someone to layan you, go talk to someone, or better yet, get a plushie. They can give you the perfect blank stare as I would give if you come to me. Sekali dua boleh lah kot I layan, but selalu sangat dengar benda sama, even a monk could go mad @@"

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In the meantime, I shall go on yoga-ing and meditating to retain my chi(or sanity, for that matter =.=)

Auntie-nephew yoga moment. Take that Dr.Spock!

P.S: I still love you, walaupun you macam tak sedar or tak kesah.

Choices indeed.

YESSSSS~~!! YATTAAAAAA~!! 2 DOWN, 5 TO GOOOOO~!!

The two things being referred to here would be my BEL (English subject) and my Mandarin (Third Language subject)

(calms down)

Hyaa~ The above jeritan batin (soul cry?) is in regards to me finishing two of this semester's subject. These two subjects are 100% based on assessment which had been carried out all thorough the semester, and thus it does not have a final paper during the examination period. Some people are of the opinion that this system is better as you do not need to wrack your brain at the end of the semester and putting all your hopes of scoring (or passing in certain desperate situations *gulps), in ONE paper. However, it also means that you would basically be on stress-mode ALL-THOROUGHOUT the semester all everything test, assignment and presentation counts.

Oh and add on the fact that 5% of your marks come from "class participation", you start seeing various people doing the monkey-act often in class. Monkey-act I'm referring to here would be the whole rising in class and randomly asking questions to which we either already know the answer to or merely because we want to stand-out in class. I'm guessing this new system was implemented with the intention to help make students' lives easier as we would have less subjects to study for during finals. I don't know, I myself am of the opinion that I like this system as i'm don't seem to be able to score fantabulously in the finals, but some of my friends despise it. Needless to say, this issue is still open for debate =\

This is basically a view of all of us scrambling to present our BEL assignment, 30% of our lives, eh-i mean our marks depend on us performing well here. With that in mind, of course i just had to have a mild panic attack while presenting. Bah, malas nak fikir, as long as its over and done with =_=

Harh! Last minute menyiapkan presentation, kantoi!

Ayuni doing her thang on "Honour-Killing". Your video rawks beb, berbaloi you main 5-10-40 kali dekat kitaorang to get our approval >p

Overall, we're all glad these two subjects are over and done with. Hopefully all turns out well and we won't have to be bothered by it again next semester. Hasta la vista bebeh!!

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On a random note, I have (finally!) bought a new tupperware for my beloved snacking partner~

Yes. I love it to the extent that it requires new tupperware every few years or so. Don't question my love and loyalty. Nak gaduh? >E

I basically had numerous choices as to what type of tupperware I want my lavlies to be stored in. Do I want the one which is high-and-opens-at-the-top, or the low-wide-necked-easy-to-use one? Hmm decisions decisions...

Pondering the question of life and death 'ere. What 'chu think?

While I was busy balancing out the pros' and cons' of each type tupperware, needless to say my family left me as they thought I was being anal about it. Pfftt, penting weyhhh benda ni, maneleh pakai pilih je >( After 10 minutes, my sister basically told me to hurry it up or risk being left at the supermarket, BOO!)

Ta-da~! Ding-ding-ding! The low-wide-neck-easy-to-use tupperware wins!

May you (the tupperware) serve thy master well *jedi style*

P.S: Shairil loves YOU! (Ohmygawdburuknyarambut @@)
P.S 2: Apa lagi cover lawa, ayuni =_="

I have succumbed.

It is now 11.17 pm at night, and I have yet to touch my Mandarin books. Yes, I have finals for Mandarin tomorrow. Behold my procrastinating skillz! (I am so screwed >_<") Anyways, today has been filled with eating, eating, and more eating! and since I'm naturally lazy (refer to above), I shall leave it to my rajin + takde kerje + gigih sistahs to blog about it =P Don't forget to talk about the kitty uolls! In the meantime, to commemorate my feeling of crankyness plus nervousness due to the fact of finals being just around the corner plus a few other issues which would not be prudent to divulge here, I dedicate this song to all youse people.

FANTINE (LES MISERABLES) - I DREAMT A DREAM

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.


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Behold, the bleeding heart has overcomed the logical mind for today.(NOTE: No, i'm not referring to any particular person, this is generally hokay)

No worries, what doesnt kill me will only make me stronger kan?

P.S : Nak tengok Shasha Fierce. Mengapakah uni sangat kejam menyusun jadual exam sebegitu rupa sehinggakan daku tidak boleh pergi ke konsert itu T--T

P.S 2: Shairil loves you. Too tired and heartsick nak tipu.